mr.H

29-10-2011..

I hope I can remember this special date, up until the time we may go to next stage of relationship. at that time I may say.. "We were just friend before.. and we are now more than just friend.." HaHa.

29-10-2011..

He was adding me at Facebook. and start conversation at chatting column. actually I know him before because he was my schoolmate for 2 years. But back time he didnt recognize me because I was very underdog person in school. no looks, no talent. and of course not familiar among others especially guys.

But I remember him, I know him at school. I know his name, his looks. he was not so famous person but people can easily remember him because of his fair skin. well. not much among guys have fair skin. plus, I am a type of person who prefer a guy with fair skin. maybe they can easily turn me on. I mean. my mood. LOL. dont get me wrong. ~KahKah! 

I had my Facebook account for almost 2 years. and I already be friends with my schoolmates for this past 2 years even though with friend that not so close to me during school time. but only mr.H added me 3 weeks ago and interested to know me more. He said that he was not into Facebook before and only being active since he broke up with his ex-girlfriend. 

and 2 weeks before he added me, I also just broke up with my ex-boyfriend.

actually by this time, I can tell. He is my closest friend. to start new love-ship. I dont think I can do that in quick time.  but frankly speaking. I am interested to know him more and more day by day. Huwarghhh. what kind of feeling is this? 

and this time, I pray to Allah. only if he is the one. may God give the easiest way for us, yeah, everyone is dreaming about being together with the one we love in wonderful marriage. what is the use of long term love-ship over the years but in the end break up and sad. I pray for my happiness and I believe in Allah. 

Quick.

Hi. my diary.

this is just another blog, about my daily bubbling. coz I love writing and sharing. and I guess. soon I will own my story books. very-very soon. 

I am nearly 24 years old. and I think it's never too late to start a life over again. I believe in myself. I can be a better me in this coming sweet 24. things just change for the better. I believe in God.

being jobless in nearly one year is very bad. but the truth is, I've learned a lot of things. the reason why I quit job is, I just think that being a 'kuli' is tiring and thats not worth it. being the lowest level in one big company is like being a maid in a big house. no one bother you. in upper level people eyes, you are just a dust. seem colourless but they can only smell your odor. sucks.

they give you a lot of shit to settle in quick time, but they pay you small. In this big city called Kuala Lumpur. do you think RM1000 is enough even for single person? you know mathematics? you know calculation? ok. lets calculate simple example. 

salary:- RM1100

transportation:- RM250

food &drinks:- RM300

house rent (a room):- RM200

bills sharing basis (internet, astro, water, electricity):- RM100

phone prepaid:- RM50

total:- RM1100-RM900= RM200

Only 200 left.

ok. that is for saving in case of emergency, then, dont you have any chance to entertain yourself? watching movies? buy your personal stuff? clothes, shoes... and you dont have anything left for your mom?. 

and let say if ur salary increase, up to 1500 per month. but at that time you can make loan. to buy a new car. still same case. the rest 400 is for your monthly car payment. yeah. you are working for living. but the truth is. you have to work to pay everything. and this is it. the real life of 'maid'. in big company. 

this is the real life. and what the heck is in CEO's mind.? you are getting richer by making people under you suffer. you feel blessed? fuck you.!